This is the most enlightening song I have ever heard. In the number “Coming Back to Life”, the author has referred to the human consciousness. The following is my interpretation of the same number.
“Coming Back To Life”
Where were you when I was burned and broken While the days slipped by from my window watching Where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless Because the things you say and the things you do surround me While you were hanging yourself on someone else’s words Dying to believe in what you heard I was staring straight into the shining sun Lost in thought and lost in time While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted Outside the rain fell dark and slow While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime I took a heavenly ride through our silence I knew the moment had arrived For killing the past and coming back to life I took a heavenly ride through our silence I knew the waiting had begun And headed straight..into the shining sun
Let us go into it one by one:
Where were you when I was burned and broken While the days slipped by from my window watching….
By “you” the author has meant his Ego. He has personified the ego. Only one who has experienced his own ego, will be able to personify it. Because your ego is no one but who you think you are. Ego is false “you” created by the society. Ego can be experienced only be being aware. When the author wrote the song, he was aware. He was probably enlightened. He has understood that he is divided, he is split. He is understood that the Ego is a false self and he had mistakenly taken the ego as himself. He had taken the ego as his best friend, his best companion and always listened to what the ego said.
And later being with the ego, one goes mad, one gets split and divided. The ego is the only cause of suffering in this world. The author must have suffered. But later when he found the cause of his suffering, he wrote this song.
That is why he says..”where were yo u, when I was burnt and broken”. The author says that he had suffered and was devastated, he was completely finished. What happens to an individual when one gets burnt? He suffers. He was calling his fried, his ego, and asking him that where was he, when he was so devastated and why did he not come to save him at that time of suffering.
He was so much involved with the ego that he did not know what is going on outside. He had no idea when it was day and when it was night. The days slipped by..without any notice.
The ego is nothing but your mind. It is all accumulated knowledge, your memory. All old stuff. It is not life, it is old. It is suffering. The author was very deeply involved with his mind and this lead to his madness.
Where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless Because the things you say and the things you do surround me….
The author was hurt and he was helpless. He was bound to be helpless. He was not able to do anything. How can he? You cannot live in the past and take care of the present. You cannot live in your mind solve your present problems. You have to come out of your mind, which is your ego and take care of the present moment. You have to be present. That is why he was helpless. He was hurt but was not able to heal himself. He was being hurt now and he lives in his mind. There occurs a gap between your present and your past, which is your mind, your ego. He was not able to heal himself. He was hurt.
That is why he says, “because the things you say and the things you do surround me”. All he was surrounded by was his past and completely forgot to be here and now. We all are dragged into our pasts. The mind goes into auto mode and keeps us in our minds. This should be understood.
While you were hanging yourself on someone else’s words Dying to believe in what you heard I was staring straight into the shining sun
Remember, the Ego is nothing but the society, it is what other people say, it is what the other people have taught you, forced upon you since the time you were born. You belong the the society. We do not belong to ourselves but we belong to the society. Society tells us what is right and what is wrong. The society decides for us. That is why we always have a hunger for approval. We have hunger for fame. And this has given rise to so may social media web sites, all liking one another and approving one another. The Ego always listens to the others. That is why he says..”While you were hanging yourself on someone else’s words…”. Remember, this is the nature of the ego. The society made us. How can now we not crave for approval, how can we not listen?
The ego always believes in the other, whatever comes he believes, because it is the product of the society. He is a slave to the society and is bound to listen. The ego is slave and that is why he is “dying to believe”.
“While the ego was listening and believing in others I was handicapped. I was staring straight into the shinning sun. I had no work to do. Because the ego is a slave, I became a slave. I became mad”. This is what he meant. A person is bound to go mad. How can he follow the society. His own consciousness always interfered with the ego. And how many time will he listen to. He is sure to go mad. Anyone is bound to go mad.
Lost in thought and lost in time While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted
See now what he says. He says, he was lost in thought. This means that he was lost in his mind. He was lost in all his accumulated knowledge. Time is nothing but his past and future. He was lost in imagination.
This is the state of most of the people. They are either lost in their past or imagining about the future. The future is also your past. Because future is all imagination. We imagine what we know, we do not imagine the anything that is beyond our knowledge. It is just a projection of the past. Projection of the knowledge accumulated in the past.
He says that he was lost while all the changes happen. Changes never happen the past or future. Changes happen now and here. And we was not changing with the change. He was physically present but mentally absent. He was in his future or past. He did not change. What happens if you do not change, you get mad. It is bound to happen.
Outside the rain fell dark and slow While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime
He says that he was not aware of what was happening. Whether it is raining or snowing or it was dark. He as so much involved in his ego. He was unaware of the present moment, which lead him to madness.
He says that the outside is changing while he was thinking about his past and future and was never in the moment. He says that this thinking is irresistible because all our thinking is automatic. Because of our conditioning, our thinking goes into auto mode. You must have noticed, whenever you are sitting alone doing nothing. So many thoughts keep coming. You just cannot avoid. The mind goes into the past and then to the future. It keeps swinging between the past and future. It is never in this present moment. That is why he says this thinking is irresistible and it has automatically become a past time.
I took a heavenly ride through our silence I knew the moment had arrived For killing the past and coming back to life
He then suddenly became aware of his Ego and you have seen that he has personified it. If he was not aware, he would have never been able to personify it. He understood that it is a false self if his and dissociated himself from the Ego. He dissociated himself from his mind, this thoughts, his past and future and was intensely present in this moment. He was here and how, where exactly the seeds of life and seeds of change were being planted.
He became aware of his consciousness, the endless space available beyond the mind. The mind, his thoughts and his past and future became small and there was “silence” around. He took a heavenly ride. The ride through the silence or consciousness is heavenly because all the mind, the thoughts, the past and the future, his ego has been left behind. That is why he felt heavenly as if he has reached heaven, he has reached GOD. This silence is our consciousness. This silence is the supreme intelligence, the only intelligence that runs existence. It is creation.
He says that this silence is OURS. He meant that this silence is available to all of us and if we want we can also access it. Only we have to develop awareness. He says that the moment you develop awareness, you leave the past, the future, the mind, the ego, behind and start living.
One comes back to life. I took a heavenly ride through our silence I knew the waiting had begun And headed straight..into the shining sun
He became aware of his ego, his mind and continued to stay in the silence. That is why probably he has repeated the line “I took a heavenly ride through our silence” .He was continuously aware and continuously accessed his consciousness.
He says that the “waiting had begun”. The waiting for what? Waiting for the miracle to happen. In the silence, miracles happens and probably the miracle happened in the form of this song.