This is the most important post as far as knowing consciousness is concerned.
THEY SAY THAT BELIEF CAN MAKE THE IMPOSSIBLE, POSSIBLE. AND IT IS TRUE. LET US SEE HOW. All my life I have been wondering what exactly is belief. There was a time when I used to go to a psychiatrist for counselling. She always told me to believe. I never understood. I asked the same question to her again and again. It was never clear. My parents told me to believe in god. I never believed. I tried my level best to by I could not. I, being a Hindu, visited many temples. But could not believe. I thought, what good is going to happen if I pray? And this is all waste of time. Somehow I did not believe.
But do you think I did not believe anything? I did. I believed always in the bad. I was conditioned that way. Conditioning means “Filling-up”. “Filling up” is just a word, to make you understand, because consciousness cannot be understood, neither can it be defined. For defining you need boundaries, coordinates, but it has none. It is eternity. It has not end. Space cannot be defined. Space can be known. To make you know, I have to first create an object, which can be defined and then remove it. Thus creating space in the place where the object was placed. Creation of space can be only known this way. This is why I have used the word “Filling-up”. Just to make you know “object” and when the object is removed, you know space. Similarly internal spaces can be known, when there is some object inside you, somewhere some block, some internal occupant, some uneasiness. When this is dissolved, space will be created. Or when you can go beyond it, more space is available. These blocks are your thoughts, argument and emotions. These internal arguments happen whenever there is a block. An external situation which we resist creates a blockage, to do away with this blockage we argue internally or may be sometimes we argue loudly also. This block can be felt in the form of an uneasiness inside our body.But this argument is again based on knowledge that we have gained till date. It is based on logic. It is old. It cannot solve a present problem. So the internal argument with the present situation continues and continues till it subsides on its own. By the time this argument stops, other arguments have started. This is an unending process. The more unwanted the situation, greater the block, more thee uneasiness and louder the argument inside. In these times, in times of crisis, of deep crisis, when the uneasiness becomes very prominent and the argument becomes very loud that you can hear yourself talk, the “filled up” can be detected. Once you detect, you become aware of the “filled-up”, and at the same time you become aware of consciousness. You come to know that despite of the deep crisis, you can still move. You change.The block or the uneasiness comes first. Then comes the internal arguments to rationalize the situation, in order to do away with the uneasiness inside your body. But these internal arguments can never do away with the uneasiness, because all arguments are old and what has one up in this “present moment” is something new, something unknown, that is why it is unwanted. The argument comes when you are not able to see the end you use all your knowledge and logic, but still cannot see the end. The uneasiness and the inner argument increases and can be detected. All your arguments will fail or will continue till your death and may be beyond that ,because you cannot solve some unknown problem with something that you know. So to know space, you have to first know the blocks, the obstructions, the lack of space. The awareness of this blocks, which are your thoughts, arguments and emotions will lead to knowing of more spaces or creation of spaces inside. Only then space can be understood. Otherwise not. For creation of the spaces, blocks are essential. Consciousness can never be filled up. There cannot be a block as large as consciousness. Consciousness is unending. It is vast, unending, unfathomable. There is always space available. It is lack of awareness of the blocks that leads to “Filling Up”. Then there is no space left for anything else to enter. Only awareness has to be increases, awareness of the blocks inside. The job of the Master is not to show you space or to make you know consciousness. The master creates obstacles “Fills up” and when you know that you are filled up, you try to find a way out and this creates awareness and the you become aware of the unending, unfathomable spaces inside you.Whenever there is a crisis in your life, know that the supreme intelligence, the only master is trying to make you aware. Be alert, be aware and you will know. Existence is giving you an opportunity to know the vast unending and unfathomable spaces available to you. I did not believe in the good may be because all my life, I did not have this insight, that there is consciousness, that goes much beyond the “Filled-up”. I did not believe until one day. When you have no uneasiness or no internal argument, no matter what happens, you have started to believe. Then belief gets converted to faith. Let us see what belief is. If I tell you that tomorrow all your problems will be solved? Will you believe? If I tell you that tomorrow morning, you will see an apple growing in a mango tree. Would you believe?
If you are a software engineer and I tell you that tomorrow you will be a Movie Star? Would you believe? If I tell you will receive the Nobel Prize? Will you believe? If I tell you that tomorrow you will earn $ 1 Million out of the blue? Will you believe? If I tell you that if you try, you can fly? Will you believer? If I tell you that if you jump from the Empire State Building and will survive? Will you believe? If I tell you that you will live 200 years? Will you believe? If someone asks you to believe the above statements at gunpoint, imagine the kind of uneasiness and internal arguments it will create. This is the uneasiness, I am talking about. I can bet that you will not believe in any of the above. Have you ever thought why? What is stopping you from believing in all the above. It is the knowledge that you gained in the past, the knowledge that you have accumulated over the years, it is the knowledge that makes up your mind stops your from believing that all these things will happen. If I tell you tomorrow all your problems will be solved. Your knowledge, in the form of the inner voice, will say there are so many problems, and each of them is so complicated, my girlfriend has left and I am so mentally depressed, I have lost my job and I don’t think that I will get a job tomorrow, I don’t have a good professional track record, I have very little money and so many things to do. How can all my problems be solved overnight. It will take years to solve all these problems. Your whole argument against my statement “All your problems will be solved tomorrow” will be based on your accumulated knowledge. There is nothing else with you, with which you will argue, but your past knowledge. This knowledge is your mind. All you will argue with is with your logic. All arguments are logical. We tend to find logical reasons to argue. With our accumulated knowledge, tend to give reasons why something will happen or not happen. It is true, because we have nothing else. If I tell you that tomorrow you will receive $ 1 Million. You will invariably call me a mad man. You logic will tell you, your knowledge will tell you that this is absolutely not possible. You will say “this is the middle of the month, your little salary is still 15 days away, getting a million dollars is out of question, it is impossible”. You straight away went to your salary, you did not think about anything else. Yes, because your argument is perfectly logical. And you do not believe. We always refer to our knowledge for Believing or Not believing. This is because we immediately want to arrive at a conclusion. We are not comfortable with not knowing. The day we are comfortable with not knowing, spaces or consciousness have been created. Know that you are in the right direction. For every statement of mine you have a LOGICAL argument. You will invariably argue. Either the argument will be internal or you will argue loudly. But you will argue. You will raise many question. You will raise doubts about my statement. You will try to logically convince me that what I am saying is impossible. Knowledge or mind based logical arguments, internal or external arguments is NOT BELIEVING. Not having this internal argument at all is BELIEVING. All our internal arguments are against believing. All your internal resistance is against believing. All our inner argument and resistance is the cause of our negativity, because there is no space to take in the good. Let me give you and example. This is very important. Take the case of a child. A child always receives gifts form Santa Clause. No matter who buys and keeps the gift in the bag. He receives it. He gets what he wants. Why? Because his logic and knowledge does not interfere with the existence or no existence of Santa Clause. His logic and knowledge has not developed to that extent. He believes without a question or inner argument. And it happens. To believe we all have to become children. So, life goes beyond logic. Things do not happen with us because we argue, we interfere, with what is being said and we DON’T BELIEVE. But the child BELIEVES and it happens with him. This is the only difference. This proves that belief can make the impossible, possible. The statement is the beginning of this post is true. Our logic and knowledge based inner argument is the obstacle to every good thing that can happen in our lives. We block it with inner argument. The day it stops, we will start believing and then, things will just happen without any effort. If the inner argument stops, we all will become a child and will start believing. Things are bound to change for the better. I can bet. To take in what is being said, to believe, space is required. Otherwise, where will we take in what is being said. That is why I always talk about creating consciousness. Consciousness is noting but spaces within. Spaces will be created when files in our memory are deleted or removed or when we are aware of the filed and they automatically deleted. Another analogy – The knowledge that constitute your mind are like springs. No matter how much you press them, they are always ready to come back to their original form and occupy space. You must have experienced, no matter how much you try not to think, the thoughts always comes. You just cannot avoid thinking and arguing. For some time, if you force another thought or doing another thing, you get mentally strained or you are not able to concentrate. Not able to concentrate means, that the springs have come back to the original size and shape. In the mind of the child, there are no springs (Thoughts or knowledge). It is empty. There is no one to argue or oppose. Anything new it goes inside without opposition or without resistance or argument. Whatever is said, he believes, and it happens. For us, when someone tells us something, that goes beyond logic, the springs the pressed, but the next moment, the spring come back to shape. The inner argument is nothing but the spring trying to come back to its original shape. You must have experienced, that it is very difficult sometimes, to get something new in our minds. This difficulty is because of the existing springs opposing the new thought from entering. This existing springs (thoughts) are the inner resistance, the argument. This inner argument (existing springs) makes us NOT TO BELIEVE. The spaces are available with all of us, but they are occupied with strong springs. To believe, only one thing is required – That is space or what is known as consciousness. There are two options available with you to access the space. 1. You Either destroy the springs (Your mind, your knowledge) completely – This is the path of Action OR 2. You find spaces beyond the springs (Thoughts, knowledge, mind) and let the springs (Thoughts, knowledge, mind) do whatever they want. Do not strain them, let the springs be, because there is unlimited space available to all of us – This is the path of meditation. Please let me know what you comments are. If can be of any help to you.